I’m not one to share personal stuff online, but this week it feels right to share with other women out there. This is my experience this week related to women’s health and shifting from contraction into expansion, from reaction into resonance.
In such a short space of time it has felt as if everything around us has shifted and there has been a huge sense of global fear and contraction. It is as if an old energy field of fear around pandemic has emerged these last few weeks, filing us with uncertainty about our future, uncertainty about our loved ones and all those that are vulnerable; everyone has reacted to this fear in different ways.
For me I became aware of the fear last Sunday evening – as I went to bed I felt a huge irritation in my bladder. I am not one who suffers from urinary infections and I knew that this was not something organic – this was fear sitting in the anterior part of my pelvic floor. This I know from my work using Holistic Pelvic Care™ developed by Tami Lynn Kent, where we can map and treat tension patterns in our pelvic floor, the root chakra. Tami created this body of work and started writing her book ‘Wild Feminine’ the day after 9/11. She realised that the women she was treating that day were all holding an active trauma pattern in their bodies although none were directly impacted by 9/11. And this trauma pattern was manifesting as unsettled patterns of tension in the muscles and fascia of the pelvic floor that had not been there just prior to this event. Being aware of this, I did some release work and meditation on my own pelvic floor and within 5 minutes the discomfort in my bladder had completely dissipated and I was able to sleep.
Next day my period started and the fear moved and became a headache and migraine. Fear does this – it literally gets stuck in a frozen state in our bodies and it leads to pain and discomfort. It felt as if my body was particularly porous and vulnerable to the fear during this part of my cycle. This period for me also coincided with the decision to stop seeing face to face clients for the time being for their own safety. I treat fear and trauma in the body every day in my work with clients and I know how to help them with it. Fear leads to a contraction in the energy fields of the body and avoiding fear does nothing to shift those patterns. Instead by bringing loving attention, movement and breath into those tension patterns we can release that contracted energy and find resonance and expansion. Our instinct is often the opposite – to stay in our comfort zone and not to want to feel the discomfort of our tension patterns but that does not allow us to reach new states of expansion.
It’s not always easy to reach into those places and this week has felt particularly challenging. I spent a couple of days stuck in my own fear and feeling my head ache. I knew deep down the answers would come for me and then in a conversation with the amazing Nat Sharratt come they did. The key for me was realising that what I was fearful of and was grieving, was the possible loss of touch. The idea that we could be looking at a future where touch was no longer acceptable and was instead replaced by fear of contact with others made me so profoundly and deeply sad. It felt like an ancient fear from the collective consciousness. This realisation led to a deep release of tears. I have made it my life’s work to serve others through my work with my hands – it is a deep calling inside of me and I love the work that I do. But having faced this fear inside of me I felt the energy move and the expansion come and for now I am in a different place.
The expansion for me was in seeing that I can use this time to be of service in other ways that still allows me to connect deeply with others. Through words written and spoken, through sharing my insights and helping other women to move into their expansions. Practically for me this means I am writing from the heart and I am offering online consultations for anyone in need of support and I’ll be sharing useful resources one of which I have included below. And I’m taking time for my own self care and my family’s too.
So take time to go within and to bring light, love, laughter and joy into your contractions and keep looking after yourself. I’m here to connect and would be happy to hear from you. If you would like to receive news from me then you can sign up to my newsletter below – you won’t be bombarded with information but I can keep you up to date on topics related to women’s health. If you would like an online consultation with me you can book that above and currently I am offering free 15 minute consultations currently. Here is a lovely testimonial from a pregnant client who I worked with over a video call
“I want to thank Rebecca for adapting her work during this very challenging time to offer some online support and therapy. I was carrying a lot of tension in my body and feeling quite anxious being pregnant given the current circumstances. Rebecca explored my emotions and helped reframe the way I saw certain things in my life. She was compassionate and calming with the relaxation work she carried out. I left the session not only feeling emotionally calmer and stronger, Rebecca was also able to help me release physical areas of tension and pain. I sit writing this in a much better place than I was before the session” Saffiya
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Love and light to all
Rebecca
A video from Tami Lynn Kent, moving from Reaction to Resonance: